#221 Old Projects Versus New: A Random Surfer Analogy

Over the last 15 years, I've started a dozen writing projects that fizzled before they were finished.  Some were as short as 6 pages.  Others, as long as 600 pages.  For one reason or another (mostly work, lack of time, or dissatisfaction) I abandoned these projects and left them collecting dust on an old computer or hard drive.

Recently, I spoke with a writer friend of mine who asked me about the writer life.  We talked for more than an hour about what we were working on, and I was intrigued by the difference of our two approaches.  He had 4 or 5 older projects that he'd written and wished to revisit for potential publication, while I had 3 or 4 new ideas that I wished to start, but wasn't sure which one to explore first.

So I spent Wednesday night with a bottle of wine (actually two) reading through several old manuscripts to see if I might be making a mistake by exploring new projects.  I'm conflicted.  I had some ideas that intrigue me.  They seem solid to me and I already have a base of work done on them, so perhaps revisiting them might be like beginning a project on second base instead of standing in the on deck circle.  Seems smart, right?

Here's my issue.  Writing a novel is more like surfing a wave to me than scoring a run in baseball.  I sit on the board in the middle of the ocean and wait for the right one to lift me up and carry me back to shore.  Sometimes I see one I like, and I jump on.  I ride it as long as possible, but some projects throw me back into the ocean.  So I paddle back out and look for another one.  Sometimes, I find a good one, and I ride it gloriously into shore, and in the end, I have a finished project.

My stack of old manuscripts represent waves that threw me off my board.  I couldn't ride them all the way back.  To revisit these old projects is like trying to catch a wave that's already begun to break.  I already gave that wave a shot and fell.

Is this too much surfer analogy for one post?

What about you other writers?  How often do you revisit old projects?  When it comes time to start something new, do you gravitate toward new ideas, or do you explore old manuscripts for unfinished gems?

#220 A Lesson In Fashion. And Writing

A week ago, or so, a friend of mine invited me out for some day drinking at one of the hip, trendy bars.  The Texas heat hadn't settled in just yet, so I decided to go, to step away from my computer and my piles of chapters that I'd been revising and re-revising for weeks.  I ironed a shirt, which I hadn't done in months, slicked my hair back, and headed out of the house.

The patio teemed with young people drinking beers and laughing, girls sitting on boys laps, couples hovering over tables waiting for some place to sit down, and several others yelling at the TV.  This one guy fell down a few feet away from us and rolled into a wooden pole.  The entire patio cheered.  At some point in the conversation, a guy I'd just met points to me and says, "I don't mean to be rude, but do you have some sort of sweating problem?  I mean, how come you're wearing an undershirt.  I don't understand.  Who wears undershirts except people with sweating problems?"

I said, "Well, I definitely sweat, but that's not why I'm wearing an undershirt.  I've always worn an undershirt.  It feels inappropriate to me not to."

The guy shrugged and muttered something about how ridiculous that sounded, so I asked the rest of the table if I was truly ridiculous for wearing an undershirt.  The table agreed.  They'd all noticed and didn't want to be the one to say anything.  But they all wondered why in the world I would wear an undershirt, unless I had some kind of sweating problem.

That night, I called my friends and told them this story.  They each said they wore undershirts when they went out and that they feel inappropriate not wearing one.  So what's the deal?  Is it a generational thing?  Is it a geographic thing?   I grew up in Houston, but now live in Dallas.  I was born in the 70s, and the people we were out with were born in the 90s.  People coming from different places and times think differently about fashion, right?  Or was I always ridiculous?

This got me thinking about my writing.  Knowing and understanding your audience is key to being able to reach them with a message.  I'm currently writing a series geared toward a younger audience, yet clearly there is a disconnect between me and the youth of today.  Don't worry, my series is not about a bunch of kids running around inappropriately wearing undershirts.  But still, there's something disingenuous about writing books for a segment of the population about which I actually know very little.

I tell this story not because I have newly learned insight into the America's youth.  Instead, I'm telling this story as a warning to other writers.  Think about your audience before you start your next big project.  Who are you writing for?  What do you know about them?  You must understand who you are trying to reach, otherwise you are going to be the only person at the party wearing an undershirt and everyone will be staring at you, wondering if you are simply ridiculous or if you have a weird sweating problem.

#219 Confidence and Writing

Life isn't easy.  Or as Wesley says in The Princess Bride, "Life is pain, Highness.  Anyone who says differently is selling something."  Circumstances in life can change quickly and can, and often do, affect a person's confidence.  As with most things, writing suffers greatly when a person's confidence is low.  So what are writers supposed to do when life happens?  Stop writing?

I've been struggling through my personal life these last few months and have seen how much it's affected my writing.  It's harder to motivate myself.  It's harder to concentrate.  I can't sustain as many hours writing at a time.  I get restless or distracted.  I actually have less I want to say.  And when I do hone in on something, I have trouble finding the right words.  All of these issues are devastating for writers.  But what's even more devastating, is when a writer stops writing.

I've been paying attention to my own struggle.  I've thought about how to regain confidence and how to get back into writing.  I can't say I've learned a magical secret.  There's no quick and easy solution to address something as complex as self-confidence.  Life will always be life.  But following are some things I've done to help get me back at my desk, because I still have stories to tell.

• Really, the only true way to address the problems in life, is to identify the specific problem that's plaguing you and tackle it head on.  If you are stressed about bills, that stress won't go away until you figure out how to pay those bills.  Or if you're having trouble concentrating because you're hungover too much, then you must address the drinking.  Or if you hate editing, and you've just finished your first draft, which is sitting on your coffee table mocking you.  Then, you must pick that manuscript up and start editing it.  There are thousands of stresses in life, and some of them you can affect by changing behavior.  So the first step is identifying what is causing the stress, or the loss of confidence.  Hopefully you'll find it's something YOUR behavior can change.  Once you identify it, change it.
• If you learn that your stress is not something you can change easily, or you're unable to understand why your confidence has suffered.  Or maybe you've had trouble with confidence for so long that there isn't one underlying cause that can be addressed.  This situation is much tougher, and it happens to be the situation in which I currently find myself.  So what do we do? Here are my thoughts:
• Take It One Day At A Time:  This is one of the biggest cliches in the world.  But it's important to remember when your confidence is low.  Don't take in the big picture.  Don't think about a lifetime spent alone, or how much it's gonna cost to repair your roof or how your child isn't coordinated enough to play your favorite sport like you'd always dreamed.  Don't think about all the bills you have to pay, plus the yard work and house work that need to eventually get done.  Don't stress over the 1000 page novel you've started writing, but you're only on page 37.  Just think about today.  What can I do today?  Make a list and pick one thing to do. That's it.  Nothing more.
• Write Something:  Everyday you must write something.  Anything.  Start a journal that works through the problems you're facing.  Write a short story about a beaver born with no front teeth, and the other beavers just laugh.  Write a blogpost on how much you like puppy videos, and list out your favorite ones.  Write a poem.  Sometimes when I'm having trouble and can't concentrate enough to do any of that, I'll open up a book written by one of the masters and just type it out.  There's something about transcribing the work of a master that helps the neurons in the brain start firing.
• Eat Regularly:  I know this sounds like a no-brainer, but when your confidence is down, changes in your eating patterns can affect your body's ability to stabilize.  I know that sometimes you don't feel like eating, or you don't feel like making food.  But it's important to figure this out.  No matter how annoying it is, just do it.  Eat at the same time every day.  Feed your body and your mind, and that will make a big difference.  This is also a great opportunity to change your diet.  If you don't feel like eating, but you're going to force yourself anyway, might as well force yourself to eat something healthy.  I've been cooking 4 chicken thighs in the oven and then will eat one for lunch everyday.  I break the chicken off the bone and put it on a salad, make a sandwich out of it, turn it into a BBQ chicken taco, or I'll eat it straight out of the oven with ranch-style beans and mac and cheese, which is one of the comfort meals I ate growing up, so it always cheers me up.  Figure out what works for you, and eat at the same time everyday.
• Take Walks:  This has helped me tremendously.  Over the last few months, I've not been able to sit at my desk as long as usual.  I found myself pacing around my house, turning on the TV, or worst yet, taking a nap.  TV and naps are the worst if you're dealing with confidence and motivation.  Don't do them.  The lack of production and stimulation drives you further into depression.  So I take walks.  Sometimes I walk so far away from my house that I get lost.  Sometimes I take my dog for a leisurely stroll around the park.  Sometimes I run.  The physical activity is good for the brain and is good for the heart.  We should be doing it anyway, but it helps when you're having problems with confidence especially.
• Schedule Things With Friends:  This has helped me more than I thought it would.  At first, I didn't feel like getting out or having to talk with friends.  But I learned that just having something on the schedule organizes the day in such a way that writing just happens.  So, if I know I have lunch with a friend, I don't mope in the mornings as much.  I feel like I have something coming up, so I must get some writing done before I go.  Or if I scheduled soccer with the guys that play in the park, I make sure my writing's done so that I won't be late.  Schedule anything.  Drinks.  A trip to the bookstore.  Watching your friend's kid play basketball.  Get out of the house, and do it consistently, and you'll see how it changes things for you in a positive way.

Life is a marathon.  So is writing.  There will be hiccups along the way.  The trick is to keep moving forward.  I'm still not done struggling and probably won't be for awhile.  But I have begun writing again.  In fact, my newest installment in the Exchange Day series will be to my editor within the next couple of weeks.  That's huge.  The things above have helped me work hard on it, and getting through the steps in my writing process has also increased my confidence.  I'm not where I need to be, but I'm getting words on the page.  And that's all us writers need to keep doing.

#204 Sick Days

Growing up, I rarely got sick.  I missed so little of school that my mom would let me take one sick day per semester to use how I pleased.  I dedicated these days to horror movies, macaroni and cheese and 4 hour-long games of Risk, when my friends were able to join me.

As an adult, things haven't changed much.  In 12 years at various advertising agencies, I would take 2-3 sick days a year (out of 10 that were given), though I was rarely sick enough to warrant using an entire day to get better.  If I was unfortunate enough to get sick, I would throw my hands up in the air, send a mass email, and set up a cozy pallet on the couch so that I could watch a day's worth of movies.  I'd order pizza, toss thousands of snot rags in the general vicinity of the nearest trashcan, and nap whenever I felt like it.  I didn't feel great, but I didn't let that spoil the good time.  Being sick was like taking a pit stop.  The race was still going on around me, but I was allowed to take a break.

Now that I write full-time, illness has become something different.  It has become a gigantic hurdle, a real pain in the ass.  My head doesn't feel right, my nose won't stop running, and I have too much writing to be done to simply sit on the couch and watch a movie.  I can't concentrate well, but I can't ignore the story either.  The resulting emotion is pure frustration.  I want to work but can't.  It's the exact opposite of when I was in advertising.  Back then, I was glad to take a break, even if it meant I was a little under the weather.  Now, I truly hate it.  I don't have time to be sick.  I have stories to write!

My passion for writing has turned sickness into... well, sickness.  I no longer shrug my shoulders and jump on the couch.  Instead, I frantically take medicine so that I can get better.  That's how I know I'm going in the right direction in life.  So I'll take more medicine, try and clear my head, and write a couple of pages today.  And I hope that all of you out there view sickness as sickness.  Cause if you do, it means you like what you do, and you don't want sickness to take you away from what you like.

#203 My First Year As A Writer

In November of last year, I began writing full-time.  I woke up on a Monday morning, and instead of going to work, I started writing.  There is such a difference between sneaking pages in between work and family on a project over the course of years and waking up every morning with the sole purpose of publishing novels.  Following is a list of what I've learned and experienced during my first year as an Indie Writer.

• Trouble with identity.  I've struggled all year when talking with people about this adventure.  It wasn't easy for me to call myself a writer.  If you want to be a writer, you must call yourself a writer.  You must feel like a writer.  Without embracing the adventure in full, you're only holding yourself back.
• Writing everyday.  A writer must produce pages every day.  I've met several aspiring writers this year who write when they can.  I know it isn't easy to write when you have another career.  But when you devote yourself to this life, you must write every day.  Without exception.  It really helps when you develop a schedule and stick to it.  
• Finish what you start.  If you quit a day job to write, you must produce finished products.  This isn't easy, as it takes months, even years, to complete a project.  But you must have stories for people to read.  You cannot get bogged down and simply move on.  A writer must power through the difficult days.  And trust me, there will be plenty of difficult days.
• Must get physical exercise.  I work out and run.  It's good for the mind, and it helps with focus.
• Animals can be super annoying.  I cannot afford an office.  So I write at home.  I have two cats and a dog, and they do everything they can to interrupt my flow.  You must figure out how to deal with this.  I have two places in my home where I can write without my animals getting in the way.
• I've written roughly 311,000 words (not including blog posts), which translates to about 865 pages.  This equals 2 published novels and 2 novels that will be published soon.  But I've sold fewer than 200 copies.  This is not enough to sustain a living.  I have a lot of work to do to get my novels in front of readers. 
• Continue to improve your craft.  It's not enough to just write.  It is important to strive for better writing.  There are dozens of books on writing.  It's important to read these, find the ones that make sense to you as a writer, and follow the advice.  Implement what you learn and continue to get better.
• Finally, remember this is a marathon.  Don't get discouraged.  You will find little day-to-day support.  You will encounter self-doubt.  You will worry about money, and you will wonder if your writing is good enough.  Push through the doubt and keep working.  Remember to enjoy the process.  If you cannot enjoy the process, then you should consider another career.

The last year's been challenging and fun.  I've made real progress with my writing and with my life as a writer.  But I still have a long way to go.  Year one has come to an end.  Year two begins now.  As always, I will document my progress as I journey toward making a living with my writing.

#200 From Interesting Premise To Vision

In my last post I mention aspiring writers beginning with an interesting premise and then bogging down in the writing process, potentially due to a lack in an overall vision.  What's the difference between an interesting premise and a vision?  That's a good question.  My definitions are as follows:

Interesting Premise:  An idea.  A spark.  An example might be, "Let's write a movie about a plant that eats people.

Vision:  The idea grows and takes shape that includes developed characters, key plot points, established conflict and resolution.  A complete fire.  An example might be, "Let's write a musical that follows a lonely plant store employee who discovers a mysterious plant from outer space.  He discovers, to his horror, that the plant drinks blood.  He begins feeding it his own blood, but eventually commits murder to keep his plant alive.  As the plant grows, its need for blood increases until it grows too large for the plant store guy to control.  There will be a love story, a wicked boyfriend, the best Bill Murray cameo in history, and many catchy songs that people will love.  At the end of the movie, the plant spawns baby blood suckers and it is up to the plant store guy to destroy them all.  Or planet Earth is doomed.

So how can an aspiring writer get from an Interesting Premise to a Vision?  What are the magical steps needed to take a spark of an idea and make it flourish into a well developed fire?  Following are things that I do to help flesh out my ideas.

• Understand Your Genre
• What are the basic conventions of the genre?
• How does your story conform to the conventions?  How does it break convention?
• Does your story cross genres?
• How does your story differ from other stories in the genre?
• Understand Your Characters
• I use sticky notes and brainstorm how each character would react in mundane/unrelated situations.  Like, 
• What would she do if she showed up to work late to avoid trouble?
• What's the last thing she does before going to bed?
• Where would she eat lunch on her birthday?
• And many more...
• Think about the relationships between your characters.  Do you see similar relationships in real life?
• Print pics of your characters.  Can use advertisements or your FB friends.  Be careful using FB friends.
• Understand primary character arc- how does she grow/change?
• Understand Primary and Secondary Conflicts
• Without conflict, your readers will tire of reading.
• Think of conflict in terms of origin and resolution.
• Trace the overall vision in terms of conflict.  The story should move forward and make sense.
• Find Your Climax
• What is the story building to?  You must know this so that you know where you are leading the reader.  This will allow you to make decisions on how best to develop the story throughout.
• How will you get to the climax from the beginning?  What key elements are necessary along the way?

If you have any thoughts to add, by all means, leave them in the comments.  Any information is good when helping a writer turn an interesting premise into a fleshed out vision.

#199 Painting The Picture

This last weekend my brother drove with me to Tyler, TX to help me paint the inside of a house I lived in several years ago and now rent out.  We removed old nails, taped the base boards, cleaned the walls, and laid down paper and canvas to protect the cheap laminate that covers the bedroom floors.  Then the painting began.

This was my brother's first time to paint.  He stood at the wall with a dripping roll brush and said, "Is that good?"  I looked at the cream-colored streak of paint slashed across the wall.  I compared it to the smooth and organized strokes on my side that covered 1/4 of the wall.  I said, "We're trying to paint the whole wall evenly.  So take a look at your streak, and make it look even and clean."  He scratched his head and eyed his brush.  He rolled over the messy streak a second time and said, "How about now?  Is that good?"

My brother recently finished college and is interested in becoming a working writer.  We talk every week about our stories, and our conversations inspire many of my posts on writing.  He wants to write comic books, movies, and short stories.  This last weekend, while we drove lonely 2-lane highways through East Texas, he asked me, "What's a novella."  After hearing my basic and underwhelming definition (amounting pretty much to "it's like a novel...only shorter") he said, "I want to write one of those!"

But my brother has one problem.  He rarely finishes what he starts.  He has dozens of half-written comic books, a handful of short stories and he is working on a novella.  But none of them are finished.  None of them are ready to be released into the world.

I used to think this was a problem of persistence.  I envisioned fleeting moments of inspiration that led him to his computer for an hour or so, where he would pound out a page here or some thoughts on a new comic book there.  I thought he lacked the conviction to finish his projects because one flash of inspiration could only take him so far.

I'm not sure that's true anymore.  When he stood at the unpainted wall, he had no idea what the finished product was to look like.  He hadn't thought it through.  He was not invested.  For him, he was helping his brother paint a house.  So he put paint on the wall and asked me if it was good.  I think this is what's happening with his stories.  He wants to write them.  He doesn't mind the work.  But I don't think he has a clear idea of what he wants his finished product to look like.  Without a clear ending goal, his project bogs down and he starts something else.

I wonder how many other writers bog down.  Do they lack persistence?  Or do they lack a clear vision?  This is a good thing to think about before embarking on a large project.  An interesting premise and a bottle of wine may not be enough to carry you through to a finished product.  It's important to know what you want the wall to look like before start painting it.

#198 A Day In The Life...Revisited

I re-read yesterday's post and found it to be a beating.  Utterly brutal.  So I'd like to revise to make my point easier to digest.

How can a writer find time?  What do 9-5ers do to get a story written when they spend so much time at work.  How do other authors do it?

These are big questions, and they impede many writers from doing what they love.  I don't have all the answers.  All I have is perspective that comes from my own experience as a writer.  So in the interest of helping others, I will share my perspective:

• Every writer is different.  There is no one correct formula.  Find what works for you, then be consistent.
• I write better in small blocks of time.  If you sit me down in front of a computer for 8 hours and ask me to write a short story, I'll have a more difficult time than if you give me 4 2-hour blocks separated by snippets of time spent doing something else.
• One specific time of day does not work better or worse for me.  I can write early in the morning or late at night.  If I'm in the middle of a project, I can sit down and write.  Not everyone is like that.  If there's a time of day that works better for you, then schedule your writing time around that.  
• Some people measure progress by pages.  Others, who are slightly more precise, use word count.  It doesn't matter which you use.  Write 5 pages per day.  Or 30 pages per week.  Or 1500 words per day.  Measurement is a good tool to help keep a writer accountable.  It's easy not to keep track at all.  Write when you can and don't worry about how many pages you get down.  But I've found its a mentality thing.  The writer who does not keep track is less likely to finish a particular project within a reasonable period of time.  The writer who does, gets more done.  And whichever tracking tool you use, whichever guidelines you set for yourself, be consistent.  It is the consistency that gets the novel finished.
• It's okay to cheat.  Sometimes in the evening I will sneak a few sentences onto a notepad while my wife is on the phone and the TV is paused.  Or before bed I will write instead of read.  The next morning I wake up and have a paragraph or page waiting for me to transcribe.  I know this is not really cheating, but I always feel like it is.  I have written almost 500 words sitting in my bed while my wife brushed her teeth, put on lotion, checked FB one last time and the next day I had my 1500 words before lunch.  Then I tell myself that whatever I write in the afternoon can be applied to the next day's tally.  It's a mental game of working ahead so that if there is an afternoon where I just do not want to write, I don't.  And at the end of the week I've still reached my pages.
• Writers with full time jobs have a different struggle.  But the same principles apply.  You need to be consistent.  But instead of trying for 1500 words per day, shoot for 500.  When I worked in advertising, I tried to write 2 pages a day while at work (in the morning when I arrived before everyone else and over lunch hour), 2 pages a day after work, and then 5 pages over the weekend.  That would amount to roughly 25 pages per week.  It wasn't easy and I oftentimes didn't make my quota, especially if I was busy at work.  But writing in this manner allowed me to chip away at projects.  When you work full-time and want to write a book, chipping away is the only thing you can really do.  It isn't ideal, but writers persevere.  

#197 A Day In The Life Of Alexander Mori

I frequently get asked about my writing schedule.  Do I write from 9-5 every day or do I stay up for two weeks straight until the novel is finished like they do in the movies.  The truth is not as simple as either of those.  So I've decided to include one day in the life of Alexander Mori to demonstrate a typical writing day.  I call it:  A Day In The Life Of Alexander Mori.

8:00a: Alarm goes off.  I snooze.
8:09a: Alarm goes off again.  I snooze again.
8:18a: Alarm goes off again.  I debate snoozing again.  Then I snooze again, just one more time.
8:27a: Alarm goes off and I get out of bed.  Morning routine begins.
8:45a-9:15a: Coffee's brewing and I'm sitting at the breakfast table jotting notes that kept me up the night before so I don't forget anything important.  I make a smoothie for breakfast and drink it while I reread that last few pages written the day before.  Check Twitter.
9:16a-10:20a: First solid block of writing.  I sit at my computer and write.  My goal is to get at least 500 words down.
10:20a-10:30a: Wander around the kitchen wondering if I want a glass of milk or juice.  I contemplate moving the operation into the living room where I can sit on the couch, though I'd have to deal with the animals.
10:31a-11:30a: I return to my first block of writing.  Still gunning for my first 500 words of the day.
11:31a-noon: I make a sandwich and salad for lunch and eat while watching an episode of Comedians In Cars Getting Coffee. Check Twitter.
Noon-12:15p: Gather laundry that needs to be washed.  Or unload the dishwasher.  Or wash wine and beer glasses from the night before.
12:16p-12:45p: Begin second block of writing.  A new 500 word count goal. I move the operation to the couch, where the dog and one cat fight for prime lap real estate, ultimately ending with both animals lying snugly in my lap. Check Twitter.
12:45p-1:05p: Move laundry from washer to dryer.  Start a new load.  Look for more dishes to wash.  Eat a piece of chocolate for dessert.
1:06p-2:15p: Continue second block.  Usually one of the stronger writing blocks throughout my day.
2:16p-2:30p:  More laundry.  And if there isn't any laundry, I hover outside the laundry room wondering if there is anything else in the house I can wash.  Check Twitter.
2:31p-3:30p: I watch something on TV.  Usually a DVRed sporting event from the night before.  Sometimes half of a movie.  This period of time seems lazy and unproductive, but it is essential.  It gives my brain much needed rest.  And if I watch the right movie, I get inspired to make my third push of the day.  One day per week this block of time is reserved for going to the store and getting lunch/dinner supplies for the week.
3:30p-5:00p: Begin third writing block of the day.  A new 500 word goal.  Usually on the couch with the annoying animals.  Check Twitter.
5:01p-6:00p:  I work out on the treadmill while watching DVRed sports event.  If there are no sports, I go for a nice, long run.  By long I mean a mile and a half.  Sometimes I do both.  This block is also reserved for mowing the yard once a week.
6:01p-8:30p: If I learn that the wife is coming home on time, I use this time to make dinner and decant wine.  If she'll be working late, which happens frequently, I sit down for an impromptu writing session.  These sessions often account for my especially prolific days.  For some reason, if it is not a scheduled block of writing time, I approach the session with a looseness that allows me to write more than usual.  Sometimes I make a drink and put on a record.  Sometimes I return to the kitchen table and write in complete silence.
8:30p-11:30p: Relax time.  Sit on the couch watching shows.  Dog in my lap.  In the evenings, she doesn't let the cat on the couch.  Sorta strange.
11:31p: Get ready for bed.  Read.  Think about what I want to do in the morning. Toil over the writing I got done.  Toil over the writing yet to be done.

I don't know how other writers do it.  A writer's schedule is as interesting and diverse as the human race.  I venture a guess that no two writers are the same.  But each must deal with the all-consuming void that is a blank page.

#196 Cutting Your Losses

A million years ago I tried out for the Spring Branch Junior High basketball team.  Though I was one of the shortest kids in our class, I thought I had a legitimate chance of making the team.  For a week, a hundred or so gangly youths performed dribble drills, shooting drills, 3 on 2 drills, cones, and whatever else our junior high coaches could think of to test our young basketball skills.

On the first day, a close friend of mine dribbled the ball from the base line to a cone positioned at the free-throw line.  He rounded the cone and let loose one of the worst jumpers of the day.  The ball soared over the backboard and bounced into the grass behind the outdoor basketball court.  Every boy in the yard laughed and heckled my friend.  He shagged the ball, threw it to the next boy in line and saluted the coaches, thanking them for their time and the opportunity.  Less than an hour after tryouts began, my friend left the yard.  His basketball career came to an abrupt end.

I stayed.  I executed drill after drill.  I demonstrated my quickness and my superior perimeter defending.  I played hard and showed the coaches that no matter what, I would NEVER give up.  And at the end of the week I was sad to learn that I had not made the first cut.  I was devastated.  It was the first time in any sport that I didn't make the team.  I went to the coaches office after practice and told them I would try harder.  I asked them for another chance.  My coaches were sympathetic but unyielding.  "We're sorry," they said.  "It's just not meant to be."

Writing can be like this.  A writer can pour his or her heart and soul into a story -- can spend weeks, or even months, on a project, vowing that it would become a wonderfully finished novel.  But not all projects are meant to be.  It doesn't matter how much work or passion goes in.  The novel is doomed from the beginning, much like my basketball career.  The question is this: at what point in the process do you realize a project isn't meant to be?  Near the beginning?  Or do you fight through all the challenges until the bitter end?

Writers must develop the skill to look at their own work with a discerning eye.  Writers must be able to recognize when their story is too short or their dribbling is too sloppy.  Writers must be able to see when their shots consistently miss the backboard, only to bounce in the grass far outside of the boundaries of the court they are playing on.

But no matter how long it takes, no matter how much passion is put into a project, writers must be able cut their losses and move on to the next project.  They will save time and heartache, and those are two things writers must always look to save.

#195 A Brave New World

We headed to the south of Dallas for Cody's first critique meeting with the Dallas Area Writer's Group.  Critique meetings are the favorites of most DAWG members.  It gives writers a chance to share their stories with other people.  In the life of a writer, stories remain pent-up for so long that they can cause discomfort, oftentimes pain, if they aren't released.  Critique night allows for the pleasant release of inspiration in the loving company of fellow writers who are polite and understanding.

We left an hour and a half early so we could account for traffic -- get there in plenty of time to get Cody's name on the list.  To be honest, this was a bit excessive, but Cody had been stressed all week because he missed his previous attempt to read his story because we showed up 5 minutes before the meeting instead of 30 minutes before.  The list had already been filled.

We made good time until we hit the intersection of 75 and 35.  All progress stopped.  Road construction caused the convergence of several freeways to transform into one massive, confusing cluster.  The traffic was so bad that several bums littered the freeway, begging from people who were parked on the highway instead of driving home to their families.  Seemed to me to be the worst time and place to beg. Angry people stuck in traffic wouldn't be as generous.  But I could be wrong about that.

Cody crossed his arms and groaned.  "We're probably gonna be late," he said.  

I tried to remain positive, but I worried he might be right and I'm not a rose-colored glasses type of person.  I assured him we would do our best.

For 54 minutes we crept along the interchange to 35, which was especially annoying when driving a standard.  But we finally made it beyond the construction and had 36 minutes to travel 30 minutes of road between us and critique night.  I tried to cheer Cody up with talk of music and movies.  But he wasn't having it.  In his mind, he'd already missed his chance to read his story.  In a sarcastic, yet not-so-sarcastic tone, he said, "Next time we're leaving at 2p."  That would have gotten us there approximately 4 and half hours early.

Anyway, to make a long story short, we made it on time to get him on the list.  He was the last reader they accepted.  He read his story, took his criticism and for the first time in his life he felt like a real writer.  That's an important feeling.  Like being able to pinpoint the moment when you become an adult.  Everything changes after that moment.  It did for me.  And I hope it does for Cody.  Because after a writer realizes he or she is a writer, then the world opens up and becomes a new place altogether.  A better place.

#194 The Memoir

I believe in the power of connection.  Like Christopher McCandles wrote in his journal, "Happiness only real when shared."  You can connect with someone over anything.  I connect with friends over sports, beer, music, food, films and almost anything else you can think of.  I connect with my brother over comic book villains, my friend's wife over gardening, the stranger at the grocery store over fancy cheese I'm buying to make my daily sandwiches taste a little better.  Life is a series of connections, unexpected moments that brighten your day because you think about someone else.  I remember my friend's mom when I make margaritas.  When I stumble upon a scrunchie, I think of my cat because in the early 2000s I used to toss them in the air and she would scurry about the house trying to catch them in her mouth.

Memoirs allow for the novel equivalent of making a connection with another person.  I've read memoirs written by artists, poor Irish immigrants, writers, chefs, teachers, pilots, preacher's sons, a man who became blind and a college athlete stricken suddenly by a brain tumor, and I connected with each of these people because they had an interesting story to tell.  Memoirs are especially important because it gives writers a chance to share themselves, to shed light on their personal eccentricities.  Every person is unique, which makes every memoir a unique experience.

I have not written a memoir and would in no way advertise myself as a master of the form.  However, I do believe my blog is a form of memoir and I'd like to share my thoughts for aspiring writers who wish to give writing their story a go.  And I've read many interesting notes from Zinsser, who knows quite a bit on the subject.

• Your thoughts matter.  We are all passengers traveling on the same vessel we call life.  Each and every one of us is unique.  Each and every one of us brings a fresh perspective to the conversation.  Don't discount your own thoughts because you don't feel worthy.  You have every right to share your opinion and tell your story as anyone else.  And you'd be surprised how many others are willing to listen. 
• Be Real.  Memoirs uncover the drama, pain, humor and unexpectedness of life because they are real.  There is a mystique that arises simply due to the fact that the stories were plucked from real life rather than invented in someone's imagination.  Don't betray that mystique by falsifying information.  Once you lose trust, the memoir becomes pointless and you'll discourage future readers who can no longer trust you.  Stay true to yourself and the events you write about.  The truth is interesting enough.
• A memoir is NOT an autobiography.  You don't have to feature everything in a memoir.  I like to think of a memoir as a snapshot in time.  A photograph.  A photograph only focuses on what is important.  You see the person, the place, the event.  You don't see the entire world or the entire life in one picture.  So it goes with a memoir.  Stay narrow.  Stay focused.
• Answer the why question.  Memoirs have the benefit of eternal insight into the mind of its subject.  That adds a dimension to a story.  You can tell what happened.  And then you can answer why it happened.  For instance, I am quirky in that I cannot let dishes stand in the sink. I must scrub them and place them immediately in a dishwasher.  Even when I am at someone's house, I cannot finish a meal and politely place the dishes on the kitchen counter.  I just can't do it.  That tidbit is interesting enough to help build my character.  But since it happens to be true and I know the progression of thought that led to me being this way, I can share the history and the mindset that exists in a person who is particular about dirty dishes.
• Think about detail.  Because a memoir is a snapshot and it must be real, the details matter.  In my memoir I can discuss my time in elementary school.  But it isn't enough to just say I was in school.  What sets my school experience apart from the millions of others who went to school? When writing about the mundane, one must include specific details, otherwise the story may feel boring.  So if I share my experience in school, one might be bored.  Been there, done that.  But if I discuss my experience in school as the shortest kid in my grade and filter every experience through that detail, I've added a dimension to the story that readers may not have considered.  I've shared something about myself that may enlighten a reader to a different aspect of a familiar situation.  (BTW, I wasn't the shortest kid in my grade.  I was the third shortest.)

#193 Steps For The Indie Writer

There's more to being a successful indie writer than just writing.  Following is a list of things an indie must do to make a living.  All of these aspects are important.  A writer can't pick and choose where to devote his or her time.  A writer MUST do it all.

• Writing - This is obvious.  Simply writing the novel is difficult enough.  It requires an idea, self discipline, talent and consistency.  A writer must pay attention to voice, characterization, plot, pacing, description, conflict and resolution.  The process can take several months or several years to complete.  
• Revising - After the first draft is done, a writer must re-read and re-write much of it, paying careful attention to the components listed above.  This is a difficult process that many writers rush.  I suggest taking a break once the first draft is completed.  Return to the project with a fresh perspective.  And TAKE YOUR TIME.  Revising is when the true writing process begins.  You have the shell of the story down, now it's time to be critical so that you can improve the story before sharing it with an editor.  When in doubt, cut.  A story can be cut drastically from draft 1 to draft 2.  The more you cut, the better the project becomes.  This part of the process can take weeks or months.  
• Editing - Every writer has a different editor and a different editing process.  Please do not confuse revising with editing.  Revising looks at how the story is told.  Editing looks at how the story is written.  Finding an editor that you trust is very important.  An editor needs to understand you as a writer and as a person.  An editor must understand what you are trying to do and must understand aspects of good writing.  Editing can cost a fair amount of money, but it is an essential part of the process.  Don't skimp here, because once a reader sees that they are reading a poorly edited book, he or she will remember and will most likely avoid future work you publish.  This part of the process can take weeks or months, depending on the editor and how many editors you choose to include.  Right now I use 3.  Can't have too many editors!
• Cover Design - Finding a graphic designer is similar to finding an editor.  You need someone who understands the novel, and more importantly understands the genre.  A cover must connect with the right audience and must align with the story.  Find someone you can talk to.  This should be a collaborative effort, one that is ever-changing until you find the right cover that readers respond to.  This part of the process can take weeks or months, depending on who you work with and how much they charge.
• Writing a blurb - A good blurb is essential for the indie writer.  You must entice a potential reader with nothing more than a paragraph.  Writing a novel is hard.  Writing a blurb can be harder.  There is no proven formula for a blurb.  I suggest reading many blurbs of successful novels.  Then write several blurbs.  Have friends and family members read your blurbs.  Listen to their feedback and then rewrite the blurbs again.  There are discussion forums at kboards.com where you can ask for blurb advice.  Other indie writers are generous with help.  I suggest you get as much help as possible.  This part of the process can take a week or more.  Sometimes longer.  But be willing to change the blurb until you see a suitable spike in sales.
• Formatting - An indie writer must format the digital file to be published online.  Poorly formatted work doesn't translate well to ereaders.  A poorly formatted book looks unprofessional and turns readers off.  There are several online resources available for the various publishing sites.  Read these carefully and follow the instructions.  Right now I publish direct to amazon.com and smashwords.com (makes books available to barnesandnoble and ibooks).  This process takes a few days the first time you go through it.  After a couple of times it shouldn't take longer than a day.

After this, your book will be available for people to buy.  And then you can begin working on the next project.  

#192 Outline v. Free Flow

Been reading articles from established writers who discuss outlining a project before writing it.  The simplified points of view are as follows:

Outlining:  Gives a writer a full sense of the story.  Forces the writer to think things through so that he or she doesn't stall in the middle of the first draft.  This is all about organization.  Mapping out in broad strokes where a story begins and ultimately where it will end.  There is comfort in the organization.  A writer can sit down each day and check off the mile markers that will lead to a desired destination.  The main negative I read is this:  outlining has the potential to confine a writer's imagination and can cause problems when characters reveal they would not do what has already been preplanned by the outline.


Free Flow: A writer begins with a good character and a concept, but allows the story to unfold organically as it is being written.  Characters are given the freedom to act as they should, which gives an air of unpredictability to the project, even for the writer.  At the end of the story, things fall into place because the characters stay true to themselves instead of being forced to confine to an outline.  An issue with Free Flow surfaces when a writer spends months writing in one direction only to discover the story has bogged down or become less interesting.  Free flow can sometimes end in a project being abandoned because it has written itself into a dilemma the writer no longer wishes to address.

I have written three novels with the outlining approach and three with the free flow approach.  I conclude that one is not universally superior to the other.  Good writing and good storytelling result from a writer's confidence.  Different people gain confidence in different ways.  A writer must understand how he or she works.  What makes him or her confident.  Writing a novel takes time, energy, and patience.  The goal is to chip away every day at a project that could take months or years to complete.  The confidence to do this cannot be achieved by a formula that works for everyone.  A writer must understand what it takes to sit and write everyday.  Some people work better with a map.  Some work better getting on the road and figuring it out as they go.  Neither is right or wrong, as both processes have the ability to get someone to his or her ultimate destination.

For me, I have honed in on a process that uses attributes from both approaches.  I like having a general idea of where the story is going, but I allow my characters to dictate how the story develops.  Sometimes the story ends how I originally intended.  Oftentimes it goes in a completely different and unforeseen direction.  The key is having enough confidence in what you are doing to sit each day in front of blank pages, slowly filling them up one sentence at a time, while also having the confidence to allow a story to change if it needs to.  The only way to figure out what works best for you is to write.  Write everyday and pay attention to what works and what doesn't.  

#191 Chore Of Solitude

Every spring the wife and I plant a vegetable garden filled with peppers, tomatoes, squash, and herbs. We spend several hours a week monitoring sun exposure, watering, and pruning.  It's a joint effort that's fun and rewarding.  And when our first harvest comes, we are ecstatic to be eating food from our own garden.

Every year, without fail, one of us gets too busy and the responsibility of the garden falls on just one of us.  This year, it fell on me.  Most evenings, when the temperature drops to a manageable degree, I step outside and water those plants that look dry.  I pick random tomatoes and peppers, and I'll remove pesky caterpillars seeking to destroy our crops.  But without the wife, this process ceases to be fun.  It's become a chore.  As a result, the garden suffers.

Writing can be very much like this.  The writing process is a solitary one.  Some days I write fabulous pages and I tell the wife, "I can't wait for you to read what I did today.  In five months when I am actually finished with this project, you're gonna be so impressed!"

Writing is a patient endeavor.  The reward comes with the process itself.  Or it comes only when the project is done and you're passing your story around to people who must devote several hours to the work you've been toiling over for months.  This is not an easy way to live.  You must be happy with yourself.  You can't rely on the day-to-day praise one might experience in other industries.

I write this post for myself and other writers who have felt the chore of solitude.  A writer must understand this is part of the deal.  It's part of the lifestyle.  If you require constant positive reinforcement, you'll be disappointed as a writer.  But if you can remain diligent, even when your spouse gets too busy to help, you'll end up with a beautiful garden.  Or you'll end up with a few random tomatoes and peppers, and the knowledge that you are doing something you love...which will be enough and will make you happy.

#190 Story Ideas

My brother's been writing short stories -- fantasy pieces that take place in a Steam Punk environment with characters from Grimm's Fairy Tales fighting a vicious villain and a mysterious fog called The Rauck.  He shares his stories with only a handful of people.  These people, who are unfamiliar with Steam Punk and fairy tales, don't share his excitement for this genre, which has caused my brother to doubt himself and the stories he wants to tell.  He told me he wanted to write stories in the "real world," so that his friends and family might want to read them.

I am in favor of writers occasionally writing outside their chosen genre.  Writers can learn from the change of perspective and style they encounter when forced outside their comfort zone.  I encouraged my brother to write a "real world" story because I thought it would do him some good.  And I was tired of reading Steam Punk, which makes little to no sense to me.

He sat at his computer in my living room, quietly staring at his computer screen.  He typed a few words, then vigorously pounded the delete key.  He groaned.  He sat back in his chair and stared toward the ceiling.  He groaned again.  "How do you come up with stories?" he finally asked me.

Without looking up from my own screen I said, "From life."

This idea seems pretty obvious.  But it doesn't occur to all writers that they can pluck stories from their day to day as a farmer might pluck an apple from a tree.  I thought of my brother a few moments ago while writing at Half Price Books, and I'd like to share.

I walked into the Half Price Books bathroom at 1:05 pm on a Monday afternoon.  An older gentleman wearing all black stood at the mirror.  He leaned over the sink with his large eyes glaring critically at his own reflection.  He removed a black, wide-toothed comb from his back pocket  and ran it meticulously through his grey hair, which was parted neatly down the middle.  

I used the bathroom, washed my hands, and stood at the electric dryer feeling the hot breath of a public bathroom blow across my palms, all the while this man stood at the mirror making himself look as presentable as possible.  I left the bathroom and lingered between the History and Weapons sections just outside.  I wanted to see where this man went.  I wanted to see for whom he paid so much careful attention.

After 30 seconds I felt like I lingered too long.  I was being creepy.  So I returned to a desk near the clearance section so that I could write a few more pages on my current project.  

I could not get the man out of my mind.  I wanted to know what he was doing.  I imagined him sitting alone near the cafe, conspicuously watching the women who visited HPB every Monday for their weekly game of pinnacle.  One woman especially intrigued him.  He battled with himself every week to muster enough courage to buy her a pastry.  A nice little dessert just to say that he would like to know her name.  

Or perhaps he was meeting his daughter and grand child for the first time.  He'd made an unforgivable mistake sometime in his past and had been estranged from her ever since.  What was that mistake?  For what did he need his daughter's forgiveness?

I stopped writing on my novel and played the possibilities over and over in my mind until finally I jotted some notes on my legal pad to be discovered at a later time when I would need a new story to write.

The moral of this little story is to remind writers to pay attention.  Keep your eyes open.  You never know when you'll stumble upon Willy Wonka, Hermione Granger, Darth Vader, or Lisbeth Salander living their life, their story ripe for any willing writer to pick.

#186 Tinkering

Sales have dropped drastically for my first novel Exchange Day.  I've read time and time again that there are three major factors (that combine with luck) to the success of an indie published novel.  Those are: the quality of the novel, the cover, the blurb.  What will it take for a new reader to take a chance on a writer he or she has never heard of?  What will it take for a new reader to spend his or her hard-earned money on an unknown novel?

As an indie published writer I MUST be willing and able to tinker with all the variables that could potentially lead a reader to my work.  So, as I publish my second novel Hand In The Dark this week, I have decided to tinker with my first novel.  I have changed the blurb to focus on one main character instead of trying to cram the premise into two short paragraphs.  I have also dropped the price from $2.99 to 99¢.  And finally, I have a graphic designer working on a new cover.  I am tinkering.  I am changing the things I can to see what is going to make a difference.

I know there are other writers out there facing the same problems.  I encourage all of them to remain positive and to focus on the variables.  Be willing to tinker.  And with a little luck readers will find your novels.

#185 Professional Proof Reader

My first novel came out in May of 2014, and no matter how I tried to read and re-read, grammar issues still arose.  Took me back to my junior high days when I swore my papers were perfect but I would still receive a grade of 83.

So I decided to hire a proof reader for my second novel.  It's an added step in the process and an added cost, but it should help eliminate those pesky grammatical errors that could label me as an amateur writer instead of the professional that I aspire to be.

I can't report yet on how successful this decision proved to be.  Once my second book is out, we'll see how many emails I get.  But I must say professionalism is extremely important when self-publishing novels.  One criticism I read over and over again is that traditionally published writers put out a superior product.  When someone catches a mistake in a print book they say, "Oh, the editors must have missed one."  When an indie published writer makes a mistake the same person would likely say, "Well, it's just a self-published book.  What did you expect?"

For that reason, indie writers must be especially careful when publishing their own work.  And for that reason, I am happy I hired someone to proof read my second novel.

#184 Craft (Post 1)

I have decided to devote time and energy to improving my craft.  Sounds like a no brainer for any writer.  I've been writing for awhile now, but my focus was always on the story.  I assumed my craft would develop over time.  If I could tell an intriguing story, then I could keep readers interested.  Now that I have been a full time writer for almost a year, I've noticed that I NEED to improve.  I NEED the writing to get better!

The first step was realizing the need.  The second was figuring out how to dedicate my efforts.  I decided to read a book titled "On Writing Well" by William Zinsser.  I am 40 pages in.  This is only the beginning to a long and difficult journey.  But as Confucius say, "A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step."  At least, I think he said that.

Here are keys to improvement Zinsser outlines early on in the book:

• Write what you are passionate about.  This allows your energy and enthusiasm to shine through the writing, which is enough to carry readers from one page to the next.
• Eliminate the clutter.  Avoid unneeded words and phrases.  This speaks to being genuine.  Don't try and be something you are not.  Write your message in the simplest possible way.  Keep your writing strong and succinct.  Style will follow.  But when you TRY to write with style, your readers will recognize that you are trying instead of succeeding.
• Write for an audience of one.  Don't worry about what others will think of your writing.  Only YOU matter.  Impress, engage, entertain yourself, and others will be impressed, engaged and entertained.  

#182 Selling Yourself

One aspect to my writing adventure that I still struggle with is the art of selling myself.  I attend parties, lunches, or talk with friendly people in waiting rooms, and I have trouble selling myself as a writer.  I know this stems from confidence, but it also stems from my desire NOT to be pushy on people.  But, how do I expect to spread the word about my awesome books if I don't tell anyone?  So, I've decided to work on this aspect of my career.

This weekend I went to a birthday party.  In attendance were several intelligent people who I learned LOVE to read.  Perfect opportunity, right?  Well, I took advantage.  When the inevitable question came up, "What do you do?",  I answered triumphantly, "I'm a writer!"

We discussed my book, my writing process, publishing, genres, great writers of the past and present, and ultimately had a grand ole time.  At the end of the night I made a point to direct everyone to my website.  This is the easiest and best place to find information on my writing and myself in general.  And it is easy to remember.  www.alexandermori.com.  But you already knew that!

When we got home I began undressing and realized the silliest thing in the world.  There is only one picture of me on my website.  I did this by design.  It is the same picture on my twitter and kboards account.  As I removed my blue, button down shirt I realized that was the exact same outfit I wore when my one photo was taken.  Everyone at the party (who ventured to the website), thinks I LOVE that outfit!

Here's the moral of the story: when you take your one photo for the website, burn the outfit you wore so that you don't look like a fool.  Either that, or buy six more of that same outfit and just wear it every day of your life.